Just want to be alone

Anger makes people do things. Some we didn't even think possible by our own capabilities. If not, it is just bottled up inside. Holding it in till one day you just can handle it anymore. Nobody cares what you really think. Even family or friends. They just say they understand to please you and some don't even try to understand.It is at this moment we just wish we were alone with no one in plain sight. Everyone dreams of a place that they can be alone and just relax. Sadly, for most it will stay a dream.

First Decade of The 21st Century

In a few days it'll be the first decade of the 21st century. Looking back. A lot happened in just 10 years of my life. If I could, I wish I could change a few things in my past. But that isn't for us to decide. Lets hope for a great 2010.

Get over it

Its amazing how people come and go in your life. How they just forget you after a certain amount of time. They never acknowledge your existence even after what you have done to help. But hey life is cruel and we cant control what happens around us. We can only pick up the pieces and just move on even if we never find out "WHY" it happens.

P.S : Hope you read this and finally understand.

Its complicated

Holidays are suppose to make you feel better. Frankly its not working as I hoped it would be. Frustration, anger and confusion are the things I keep feeling. Not fun...

New moon

Just watched it at Pavillion. Surprising enough.....I actually enjoyed it. o.O' It was better than the first movie by miles. (lol)

......

Ok I've said enough without making this weird.

=____='

Afterimage

Don't you just hate it when you're trying to forget something or someone. In the end it comes back stronger than ever. =__='

Ainsi qu'on voit des blés
les épis onduler
Sous la brise légère,
Ainsi frémit mon coeur,
prêt à se consoler,
A ta voix qui m'est chère!
La flèche est moins rapide
à porter le trépas,
Que ne l'est ton amante
à voler dans tes bras!

It never lasts

The happiness left as fast as it came. It never lasts. Regret and guilt is infinite. It will never leave you once it has happened. Nothing will make it go away.

Life is not just doom and gloom

You gotta see the shiny and happy part of life once in a while :)

Think

Unfortunately even insanity makes you think through about things a lot. Give a listen.

Insanity

My own thoughts are trying to drive me insane. So many things bug me right now. But nothing I do seems to fix it. Unless I can take out my brain and wash my own mind right?!?! HAHAHA.

Disillusioned

If what you say is true. Then theres nothing I can do. My efforts have been useless and in the end I alone suffer. All memories and moments, good or bad will disappear in time. May we never meet again because I wont look back and try to reconcile with what has been done.

It gets worst

I feel alone,

so very alone

I feel hurt,

so very bad

I feel ignored,

just thrown aside

I feel lonely,

not many see the pain

I hope,

but hope is gone

I feel alone,

and not many know

Something new

Im learning how to play the bass guitar now. :D I bought my guitar from my cousin. Its a SX Manta Ray Jazz Bass guitar. Its soo pretty *drool* :P. So yea im not taking any classes till the school holidays so im just learning from my cousin for now. Weee.

Hope

Even during times of true hardship. There will always be a tiny spark inside of us that tells us to never give up and keep going until we succeed.

Delusion

Do we really know what we want? Or is it nothing more than just a delusion we suffer. Feeling like nothing is right and that everything is against you? We wish that we could just be alone in a place of peace and serenity to think and ponder.

Reach

Something so close, can also become very far. But we try to reach it anyway. Trying anything and everything to get it. Yet sometimes for all our efforts. We might just get nothing in the end. But that doesn't mean we should give up. We put more effort to reach it and when would do reach it. It makes us happy knowing that, what seems like unreachable. Is actually not that hard to reach.

Lost

A great feeling of uncertainty has overcome me. I wake up feeling unsure or sometimes feeling as if something was missing or needed to be done. What that 'something' is and why i'm even having this sort of issues is quite bothersome.

"I want to reconcile the values in your heart"

Muse - Undisclosed desires

Tribute to a great man

Today is glorious day for all Arsenal fans. Id like to dedicate this post to Arsenal's most longest serving and most successful manager in the history of Arsenal Football Club.

ARSENE WENGER!

He has served the gunners for 13 years helping us to bring many trophies along the way. His most notable achievements was when he achieved the "Double" (winning the Premier League and FA Cup) in his first full season and again in the 2001/02. He also achieved what no other premier league club have yet been able to achieve, going through a whole season and 49 games in total undefeated. He also had helped bring Arsenal to the 2006 Champions League final in Paris, France. He also won many FA Cups with Arsenal.

Besides winning trophies he has also helped Arsenal change to become a football team that plays a beautiful passing game which has brought praise by many critics and managers world wide.

He is also great at spotting young talent helping the likes of Nicolas Anelka (Before he moved to chelsea), Cesc Fabregas (Our current club captain) and many many more. He has also helped players who seem to have no talent to become one of the best players in the world such as Dennis Bergkamp, Thierry Henry, Robin Van Persie, Cesc Fabregas and many more.

What he has achieved for Arsenal will always be in the heart of Arsenal fans and he can keep working knowing he has the backing of Arsenal fans around the world.

"IN ARSENE WE TRUST"

Congratulations on 13 years at the helm "Le Professor"

WHEREVER. FOREVER. ARSENAL

Surprise

Got a great surprise when I got home from school. Made my day much better :)

Pics later tonight.

Losing Friends

Every few times or so in our life we meet a new friend. After a while we become very close to our new friend. Always talking to each other everyday to the point that you just cant seem to stay away from each other knowing that deep inside that you think this friendship will last forever.

Suddenly one day, your new friend is not there to talk or have fun with you. They say their busy. You understand and just let it go and eventually this drags on for weeks or maybe even months. You wonder even more as to why you both have not talked in a while so you try and confront your friend. They again give the reason is that they are busy.

Eventually, there is a retreat from self-disclosure and seeking out each other's company. Avoidance begins. The friendship slowly loses importance and finally disappears.

You wonder what had happen to your once great friendship.

Sadly this is life. People come and go in our lives and when they do go, we must pick up the pieces and just move on. No matter how much it hurts.

But there are some who never give up. Knowing that maybe one day this friendship might be rekindled.

What do you mean its not a kazoo!?!?!

Time flies so fast. I didn't even notice it was the last day of holiday till I checked my Calender. >:O

As they say, "Time waits for no one" or "Time is gold". Whichever suits you better.

My overall opinion on how my holiday has been is "Meh". More negatives than positives but hey when has life ever gone anyones way 100% right???

One thing I did do during the holiday that I enjoyed was catching up on my cooking lessons. As most know I LOVE cooking and I spent the half the holiday reading about it. I'm gonna test myself soon..maybe cook dinner for my family or cook my own lunch. Great chance to see if I can cut veggies fast without taking my fingers too.

HEHE >:D

LISTEN TO MUSE "THE RESISTANCE" FTW

Raya

Raya wasnt all that great really this year. It was kinda bland and for one reason is because we didnt go visit people while we were at Kedah. My dad's leg was injured so he didnt want to go anywhere. In the end my last few days at Kedah were spent playing with my cousins and eating absurd amount of kuih raya. There were still positives. Got loads more duit raya than last year and i hope itll keep increasing :P.

School next week. BLEH! Then again i just cant wait to sit in the library and just be blur. haha

<(-_-)>

Waffles

YEAH!

2 days ago my dad brought us to an A&W at PJ for a treat. WAFFLES! *yum*.Apparently the one we went to is the first one to open in Malaysia and is also a place my dad likes to hang out when he was still in school. Neat.

The waffles there are MUCH larger than the one other standard A&W's sell. It also has its own ice cream bar. (Lol) So yeah because the fact the waffles were quite big, I shared with my sister. Apparently for her waffles werent enough so she ordered hot dogs and curly fries too. (waw)

Jeez even I dont have an appetite that huge >.>'

I need more waffles.

Long time

Long time since I last posted. :S

I still have gastric which I had since Tuesday. Its hurts a lot sometimes but i have to put up with it anyway. Maybe I should drink less orange juice and eat less spicy food for the time being.

Anywaaaay, theres this book thats coming out which I reaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaly want but I worry that its gonna be beyond my budget :(. I should start making some money..but i still have to buy my lil sisters birthday present. Hmm. Maybe I should start selling kuih raya? (HAHA ya right -.-)

Next week is gonna be a busy week at the library. Lotsa stuff to do before cuti raya. Hopefully all will be settled earlier so i can get some rest.

Zzzzz

A.N.N.O.Y.I.N.G

The monkey which i mentioned a few posts down is really starting to drive me insane! The bloody thing keeps popping out of nowhere and giving me the shock of my life =_+'. GAH!

Monkey business aside....

My room looks like as if a bomb hit it and ive told myself to clean it up sooo many times that ive lost count. Maybe I need a morale boost somehow? @_@'

Yummy

First day of puasa is over. Only 30 more to go.(LOL) Suprisingly enough today went by quite fast...too fast.*twitch* Got some of my homework done, which is a GOOD thing because I expect to myself to become quite lazy after Monday so better to settle most of it before then.

Im still wondering how am I suppose to keep myself fit during this month. I can still do my normal weight training exercises but I need something to maintain my stamina. Jogging is definitely out..maybe just walking on a treadmill but thats soooo boring. -.-' Ahh maybe the answer will suddenly come to me.........or not.

Annoying

Stupid monkey cant leave my window alone. (AGGGGGG) Have I ever told anyone how much I HATE monkeys. Maybe not...

I wish it would stop tapping my window already ;___;

Puasa

Yes ladies and gentlemen it is that time of year again.

Im sure so many of you are looking foward to it. Testing to see how many kilos you can shed in a month. Lol :D

For me its just the fact food taste so much better when you only eat once a day. Puasa just makes me appreciate food more than before but of course not to the point of OVER EATING. :P Well its gonna be a looooong month and I wish every muslim. Selamat Berpuasa :O

Football issues next.

Another match tomorrow but this time its a home match! (finally -.-). Team news is Eduardo is available for playing but Nasri , Rosicky, Fabianski and Walcott are still out. :(

Match details at the bottom (Scores will be added once the match ends)

Arsenal vs Portsmouth

Emirates Stadium, North London

22 Aug 09 / 9.55PM

Live on STARSPORTS

Scores

Arsenal Diaby 18,21 Gallas 51 Ramsey 68

4 - 1

Portsmouth Kaboul 37

Loooong night.

So yes, tonight is ANOTHER football match. (yay) Details will be at the bottom. I wont elaborate anything more than that cuz this isnt a football blog. Lol.

Well today heard one of my friends is suspected to have H1N1 and might be positive. Wishing him all the best. Quite shocking eh.

....what a short entry.

Celtic vs Arsenal

Celtic Park, Glasgow

2.45am

Live on ESPN

Eventful

What an eventful day this is turning out to be. A rat went into my sisters room and I was forced to help catch it. After an hour of trying to catch it, we managed to get it stuck behind my sisters comptuer table. We crushed it then sprayed ridsect on it. Mum wanted to burn the rat but my dad told her to just bury it. Lol??

Happy morning.

Well its already afternoon..but my internet was acting funky and so this post is actually a few hours late then the original time I intended to post. -.-'

Moving on to serious matters, Arsenal's match yesterday was just SUBLIME. Crushing Everton at their home turf 6-1 can really bring out the happiness in you. Im sure every Arsenal fan would agree with me. :P

Hmm...football aside..tomorrow is the oral exam for english. Not sure whether to do a presentation or just stick to making a dialog. >.<' A dialog would have been the wiser choice...but presentations are easier to do. Decisions...decisions. >.>'

Arsenal 6 - 1 Everton

Denilson 26

Vermaelen 37

Gallas 41

Fabregas 48,69

Eduardo 88

A month

Which is exactly the amount of time its been since i last posted here. Well I finally edited the thing...it looks more blog like now that before. PFFT. Puasa is next week...which means waking up VERY early just to eat...and that is gonna take sometime to get used to again =.=' but the good news from all this is that the new football season is finally starting....in a few hours.

ARSENAL VS EVERTON

12.45am

Goodison Park

Live on ESPN / STARSPORT

UPDATEZ

BLEH. More than a week since I last updated this blog and in that time nothing much happened really....

3 more weeks till the next Premier League season! wooo. Tough games ahead for Arsenal with the first game away to Everton and at the end of august is a nail biting match against Man Utd *hates man u*.

Ill try to properly update this blog as soon as I can..like this weekend! *I think*

Sigh

A tiny part of me is feeling quite uneasy right now which only very close friends know why but alas the situation is becoming more complex and hard. :(

Other than this lifes been good :). One of my aunts old friends, "Uncle Scott" came by to visit a few days ago. Had lunch at my grandparents house. Apparently he thinks I look more like a samoan than malaysian (LOL). Its flabergasting the fact that he supports Man U... BLEH! >_<'

Till next time then.

Interesting

Ive suddenly found jogging to be quite fun. Odd. Well maybe its because the intake of fresh air ill get instead of the dusty air in my house >_>' or just enjoying the nice evening sun. In other news looks like ive got another camp end of this month. Scouts this time, which means new rank! woots :P

Library Week

Library week is in 2 weeks. Apparently ive been chosen as MC (how annoying) and im suppose to handle the rubik's cube competition. Gack. Well it cant get any worst than that. Then again it could.

First Entry

Well hello. This blog was made specificly for my friend Amirah Wani and some other people who couldnt read my other blog :S. Any updates on the other blog will also be updated here. So check it out. :D